December 28

”Only those who do nothing make no mistakes.” Anonymous

Putting my heart out there in a new relationship has not been an easy task. Coming out of a marriage that was broken, into a single life later in my life was daunting to say the least. Having started to date and having found a steady partner has led to its own set of challenges. One thing I know that was important for me, right from the start, was to be fully open and honest. So my disclosure on the first encounter was a testament to my acceptance of my addiction and my willingness to be different in any new relationships. Moving on in a romantic setting has taken a willingness to make mistakes, and more importantly to put myself in a position of being vulnerable. Exposing my past, openly expressing my thoughts and emotions, and letting another person get close to me means taking the risk that I might get hurt. Yet for the first time in my life I feel I am starting off from a healthy place, where I know who I am, that I am whole in mind, body, and spirit. Through all this, my main priority is still to remain committed to my recovery. I know that I need to take care of me first, to make sure my program takes precedence if I am to be available to participate fully in anyone else’s life. Therefore my routine needs to continue, I have to keep going to meetings, reaching out and practice my prayer and meditation. All this will help keep me focused and minimize mistakes I will make by not living in the moment.

Affirmation Today and for always my recovery must come first if I truly want to be there for others and be of service.