April 21

”Defeat is not the worst of failures. Not to have tried is the true failure.” George E. Woodberry

At the height of my addiction, in the darkest period of my acting out, I did indeed feel defeated. Large parts of me were ready to throw in the towel as the only way out seemed to be to delve deeper into the depths of my despair. Today, while I do not yet relish failures, I can more readily accept them as honest efforts in trying new things and in taking chances to cope in more normal ways. And even when things do not go away, I am usually able, sometimes with help, to see the positive in the attempt and maintain a sense of hope. SAA may be based on a spiritual foundation, but what I appreciate the most is how it has renewed my sense of hope that I can live a normal life by working the program to manage my addiction, One Day at a Time. I need no more assurance than that, handling today is a good enough promise for me. With each passing day I feel further from the brink of the pit of despair from whence I came. My days are not always pointed in the right direction, but most are and each one is taking me along my path to recovery.

Affirmation It will be alright for me to fail at something today; I can look at the positive and be encouraged that I am making progress.