November 11 (83)

”Great hope makes great men.” Thomas Fuller

Hope is still something I struggle with. Having lived with the belief that “if something is too good to be true, it usually is” for so long is challenging to overcome. I am too used to that feeling that when things seem better than what I think I deserve that I need to sabotage them. It takes time and effort to be okay with the good things in my life and to have the self-esteem and self-confidence to accept them. Coming to terms with being in a better place in my life takes time and effort. But here, as in recovery, it is important for me to continue facing life One Day at a Time. Just because I am doing better is not a reason to stop applying the Steps and principles of the program. In fact, it should be the incentive to keep using them to protect this new way of living. It’s pleasant being able to hope and to have moved forward from the place and time where I was reaching out for something else in total desperation. Instead I find I have a healthy yearning for the good and positive things in my life. The program is helping me experience personal renewal as I transform from darkness into light.

Affirmation Hope and dreams will become a way to look forward in anticipation of a happier and healthier life.