May 25

”Don’t compromise yourself, you are all you’ve got.” Janis Joplin

Some days are harder than others. There are times when I wonder how much of my effort is put into things that can no longer be salvaged. I find myself internally conflicted about how hard I am supposed to fight for the things I still love and care about. When I lead from my heart I usually feel I am doing the right thing, but if I think too much it often seems I start to doubt my own intentions. I still struggle with trying to follow the right pas while at the same time being open to the guidance of my Higher Power. As much as there is a part of me that feels I need to hold on to what is dear to me, another part believes in the “if you love it let it go; if it comes back then it is yours” philosophy. In the midst of all this I need to constantly remind myself that my recovery, my serenity and sanity, is most important. I have to focus on what is within my control, which means taking care of me by working my program and performing actions that support my outer circle. I cannot control others, and can only pray that my heart’s desires will be fulfilled if I continue to patiently work away in the background.

Affirmation As hard as it may be, I need to remain focused on myself. Improving relationships takes two and I will practice patience until both parties are willing to move forward.