September 1

”Whatever you do will be insignificant, but it is very important that you do it.” Mahatma Gandhi

Sometimes the things that I think are not significant end up being more life changing than expected. I recently fell back into some of my addictive patterns, and contacted someone from my past that was not healthy for me. However I was able to back out of that headspace and into recovery again. The experience actually helped to reinforce how my values and morals have changed, that I am not the same person I used to be. In a way, it felt like a purging of the past, of old thoughts, fantasies and feelings that I was still carrying with me. My self-confidence is gradually returning as I face life’s challenges with new tools, from a new perspective, and walking with my Higher Power by my side. I now have the support of my fellowship and trust in them to be there for me no matter what comes my way. In the grand scheme of things, most of what I do is insignificant, yet as Gandhi points out, for me and me alone, it is important that I continue to make choices in living my life in recovery.

Affirmation I will find strength in places I did not expect, hope in despair, and love in hate. I need to be actively living and things will improve.