February 26

”We are all dreaming of some magical rose garden over the horizon – instead of enjoying the roses that are blooming outside our windows today.” Dale Carnegie

It is often said that we do not know what we had until it is gone. The same can be said when we look back at our past during periods of sobriety and see what we have lost, squandered or thrown away. The addiction promises a lot, to fulfill our needs, our wildest fantasies, but when things are realized, these promises are usually empty ones. As addicts we live to feed our addiction that does not give back what we put into it. Rather, it keeps demanding more, more time, effort, money, often to deliver even less to us in return. It’s hard to break the cycle, but when we manage to put healthy means of meeting our own needs, physical, emotional and spiritual the benefits are often much greater than our efforts. Why wouldn’t we jump at the opportunity to have more of this in our lives! This is part of the struggle of living in our addiction.

Affirmation I will be thankful for what I have today and be aware of the empty promises of my addictive behaviour.