October 7

”The true measure of a man is how he treats someone who can do him absolutely no good.” Samuel Johnson

This certainly has been a challenge for me as I move forward in recovery and my life. Unfortunately, I have hurt people and as I disclose my addiction, I seem to have made more enemies than friends. Those closest to me are some of the people that have injured the most, having deeply betrayed their trust and respect. The boundaries I have crossed cannot be undone, nor the pain taken away. My former spouse, and even my children fall into this category, at least for the time being, as some of them want absolutely nothing to do with me. Yet I am still a parent, and I have a renewed desire to take my responsibility seriously, to be an active part of my kids’ lives, to do a better job of supporting, and displaying my affection and love. I truly believe my children deserve and need both parents in their lives to be healthy and whole. So I will continue to do all that I can to remain a part of their lives while at the same time continuing to improve myself. There is damage I cannot undo in my life, but I refuse to let that stop me from making a healthier future from here on in. The past may never be forgotten or forgiven, but I can start creating new and happy memories today.

Affirmation I recognize that I may never rectify my acts from the past, but I can continue my recovery and living as a better person today.