October 9

”Courage is the greatest of all virtues. Because if you haven’t courage, you may not have an opportunity to use any of the others.” Samuel Johnson

Being in recovery take as continuous supply of courage. And while my on confidence is steadily improving, I am well aware that my own efforts are not enough. I have to ask my Higher Power to help out on a regular basis, most days I am just not brave enough to do everything the way I should. Take for example a recent day in my life. I had been looking at registering for a parenting course, but given that I am now separated, I no longer have my built-in babysitter for the week I have my kids. My best option was my brother-in-law, but I was hesitant to ask given how the family relationships were dissolving. Finally I prayed for the courage to make the call, only to find out he wasn’t home but at his brother’s place where my relationships are even more strained. So I asked God for His help again and dialed the second number. No answer. So, unsure if I was simply being ignored, I asked one of my children to call their uncle and let him know that I wanted to speak to him, and left the rest to my Higher Power. I did get called back a couple of days later, and he was willing to help out so I could attend my course. Because I asked for the courage, I am working on rebuilding at least one damaged relationship.

Affirmation When I cannot find it within me to do what needs to be done, let me pray to God for the strength and courage to continue.