January 20

”A professional is someone who can do his best work when he doesn’t feel like it.” Alistair Cooke

I am trying to maintain this professional attitude in terms of my recovery. There are days when I just don’t feel like doing the work for my program, to pick up and read my daily meditation, to reach out to my sponsor, to go to a meeting, to journal, pray or meditate. I need to force myself to get into my routine, and usually the pressure of the simple fact that going back to me addictive patterns is no longer an option. The cost is not worth it, I have too much to lose now. Being in recovery is like having another job. I need to be responsible and do those things that would make me a good employee. And, realistically, the amount of time and effort that I need to expend is a whole lot less than I used to work in my addiction in planning, scheming, in front of my computer, or whatever. Maybe not as pleasurable but certainly more healthy. And I can always change my attitude about what is pleasurable so that my recovery becomes something to enjoy rather than something to dread. It is my new way of life.

Affirmation My recovery will have a bigger reward dependant on the amount of effort and how seriously I work at it.