January 24

”They do not love who do not show their love.” William Shakespeare

It has been a hard transition falling out of love with my former spouse, and even more difficult in trying to deal with the fact that I am no longer loved by them but even worse not even respected. This has made it difficult to face the prospect and procedure of divorce, to act jointly as parents, and a number of other things. I need to seek information from third parties as I cannot get it directly from the other parent who has a responsibility to keep me informed. Yet through all this I have faced up to the struggles and continue to let go of what is not mine. I still act out of respect, still keep my former mate informed of the things they should know, and still continue to act as I want to be treated. For all those things that I want to say because I feel hurt, disrespected, angry or rejected, well those I share with fellow members or put in a special journal to my ex that if spoken I know would simple fall on deaf ears. I still have love to share so I focus on giving it to those more willing and receptive to it. Perhaps in time things will improve, but for now this is how things are and I accept the reality of my situation.

Affirmation I accept that my recovery only promises to restore me to sanity, and not those around me. I will continue to surrender what I cannot control to God.