June 24

”Confidence on the outside begins by living with integrity on the inside.” Brian Tracy

A fellow member was recently sharing about how they have been discovering their Higher Power while working Steps Two and Three. A phrase that they used really struck me, the fact that this person now felt comfortable to “lean into the struggle.” It was a great visual that made me reflect on my own story and how I used to recoil from confrontation. Complete avoidance or running away used to be the way I would escape, and then I would have bury the shame of feeling less than by acting out. These days, while I do not openly seek out conflict, I have regained confidence in myself to face up to situations that are worthwhile, where my character, values or morals are jeopardized. I am aware that this new strength and courage is a direct result of living a life that has a strong base of integrity and honesty. This change has only been possible because I too have reconnected to my Higher Power and have found the will to surrender. I do not fully comprehend what God’s plans are for me or what path lies before me. But I am learning to trust that his plan is a good one and that He means me no harm. I am open, ready and willing to follow His Good Orderly Direction, to be receptive to His will and not my own.

Affirmation I am grateful for discovering the power of surrendering each day to the God of my understanding. May His will, not mine, be done.