April 30

”Whether you're keeping a journal or writing as a meditation, it's the same thing. What's important is you're having a relationship with your mind.” Natalie Goldberg

One of the goals of my recovery is to become more honest with myself. In writing as much as I do, I have had to stare black and white at my own thoughts and feelings. It’s hard to ignore my own words when they come back at me. This has been most apparent in these meditations which I reread from time to time. This is more to this than just a relationship with my mind. I can also see the presence and influence of my Higher Power in the words that fill the pages. I often start with a random quote, not knowing where I intend to go with my thoughts. It often amazes me to see the final result of my ponderings put to paper. The biggest difference I notice since beginning to write is that my recovery has become more real. It takes putting my thoughts outside of myself in some fashion, sharing them aloud or scribbled in a journal, to make them concrete and tangible. It is another level of commitment as I continue down my road of recovery.

Affirmation I write, therefore I am in recovery. Concretising my thoughts steels my will and keeps me connected to my Higher Power.