”Sorrows come to stretch out spaces in the
heart for joy.”
Edwin Markham
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I am coming to terms with
being able to appreciate, at least to some to degree, being grateful for the
pain I have caused myself through my addiction.
As I progress in recovery I am gradually regaining the ability to enjoy
many of the small wonders of life, a walk in the woods, play time with my
children, a good movie, a nice dinner at home…all the things that I had lost
sight of while in my active and compulsive addiction.
Since I have started
recovering from my addiction, I am becoming more aware of the size of the hole
in my life that remains to be filled. I am pretty certain that my addiction not
only covered up the void within me with its temporary fixes and empty promises,
but was also eroding the edges to increase its size. I guess the good news in
that is that there is now more room for me to put good things into, all the
real benefits I get from focusing on my recovery and my outer circle
behaviours.
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Affirmation
I
choose to find the positive in the pain and suffering that my past behaviour
has caused. I will rejoice in all the small real things I can do in recovery.
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These thoughts are part of my personal journal - reflections of where I am and have been in my recovery, but also where I want to be. My words come from my heart, and moments of clarity when I am best connected with my Higher Power. May God grant you serenity in reviewing my humble beginnings and my continuing path of recovery.
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Thursday, 22 March 2012
March 22
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