September 12

”Our only security is our ability to change.” John Lilly

I’ve never really equated change to a sense of security. I think I feel more insecure in periods of change, more apt to uncertainty of what will come to pass. I know the stress of change was one of my triggers of the past. I do see that this perception has been changing though. I realize that I am becoming a living model of the Serenity Prayer, and more accepting of the things I cannot change. One of those is certainly the fact that things are always changing around me. So in a way, realizing there is change is a good thing. Because, in comparison, living in addiction was a life of stagnation. There was no real change – it was the same thing, day in, day out. Maybe the flavour, or the amount of time spent, or some other factor was a little different, but there wasn’t any real diversity in my life. I guess that means that I can now see security in my ability to change, that it reflects the fact that I am healthier and more actively participating in life, rather than trying to freeze-frame moments as I used to do. Change is good, I don’t have to look back to far to see the proof of that in my own life.

Affirmation Life is a cycle of changes, and I am a part of that process. Being involved is healthy and normal.