March 2

”Trust yourself. If you don’t learn to trust yourself, you will never be happy. You’ll always be deferring your authority to someone or something outside of you.” Paul Selig

One member’s introduction made a big impression on me and served as a reminder of the fact that I often go to a meeting to share the things I don’t want to say. Recently this message took on a new meaning as I began to look more at my actions, primarily as part of my work on Step 10. What I have discovered is not only that I need to share the things I don’t want to talk about or prefer to keep a secret, but that I also need to apply this to what I do. I have many choices in my day of what needs to get done  or what I should be doing, and I have recognized that I often shy away from the things I don’t want do. Just like I need to share the things I would rather not bring out into the open, I am realizing that the things I don’t want to do are what I should be doing. Most often they are related to my recovery and taking better care of myself. I was too used to shirking my responsibilities during my active addiction, of finding everything I could do other than what really needed to be done, so this is another area where I need to work and develop better habits.

Affirmation I will prayer for the strength and courage to do the things that I would rather not today. The challenge they present is a block I need to overcome to grow.