February 26

”On-line, adj.: The idea that a human being should always be accessible to a computer.” Anonymous

Computers and technology are certainly a mixed blessing. They are a good tool, when used properly. However, like many modern things, they can also be abused. This was certainly the case for a larger portion of my acting out days. This became a means for me to increase my activities, in frequency, in scope by allowing me to access many more topics and avenues, much faster, and from pretty much anywhere at any time. The computer was one thing that had to change as I entered recovery. I wasn’t able to control my activity on my own and had to rely on internet safety software and restricted access to curb my behaviours. It was not good for me to be always accessible to a computer. These days I am able to use a computer and the internet as a tool, for my day-to-day needs, as well as for recovery and outer circle work. I still need to be mindful of the pull into my former behaviours, because many are still just a simple click away. And there always seems to be something enticing just lurking around the next page. Vigilance is a must to guard my sobriety.

Affirmation Technology can help my recovery, but I need to admit where it is a hindrance and seek whatever means necessary to protect myself from unwanted influence and access.