June 23

”Many of our fears are tissue paper thing, and a single courageous step would carry us clear through them.” Brendan Francis

I am often my own worst enemy when it comes to making choices. I can analyze, find excuses, rationalize all the things that could go wrong and simply stall until I end up doing nothing at all. I do this out of fear, anxiety or simply ignorance. Well, at least this is how I used to be most of the time. Since I have begun surrendering to my Higher Power and reflect on the things in my life that I can change, my confidence has indeed been returning. In making choices once again, but from a state of serenity has shown me how often my fears and worries are unjustified and only served to keep me within the clutches of my addiction.  Each decision helps me strengthen my resolve and increases my ability to continue making choices. It diminishes y need to overthink and analyze life to the point of inaction. Today I look at my decisions as much as possible form the point of view of what feels like the will of my Higher Power rather than my own desire. Usually this means doing the opposite of what my initial reaction is in a given situation. This reversal of decision-making has often kept me from heading down paths that would have led me to acting out so I believe there is some truth in continuing to use this tool.

Affirmation I need to be careful in making choices, but not so cautious as to do nothing at all.