June 1

”You don’t get to choose how you’re going to die. Or when. You can only decide how you’re going to live. Now.” Joan Baez

One message from the AA Big Book that still resonates with me is that “half measures availed us nothing.” I remember well that decision point in my early recovery where my resolve was tested. I came to the moment where I had to choose to stop walking on both sides of the fence, trying to hold onto a reserve of my old ways. Making that step and “going for broke” has made the difference in my recovery. It was a big risk, it was scary, yet I have not regretted that decision in the least. The same idea has applied to other areas of my life. It applies to how I view relationships, how connected I am in my work or any number of other things that I do. If I truly want to be open, honest and willing I have to put all my chips in and let the cards fall where they may. When I hold even a little something back and don’t give 100% of my time and energy then I let myself down. The places where I choose to spend my time and energy are important – so I need to treat them that way. If I cannot give my all then maybe I need to rethink just were the activity or relationship fits in my life. The things that truly matter and are meant to be a part of my recovery are worth putting all my effort into.

Affirmation Am I in or am I out? Today I will put everything in to what I do, I deserve to give my best to what is important in my life.