October 24

”Courage is the first of all the human qualities because it is the quality which guarantees all others.” Sir Winston Churchill

Owning up to the parts of my life that are not as I would like them is challenging. This is because it causes me to look at my defects and weaknesses which in turn is usually a trigger for me to want to return to my old behaviours. Which in a way is a self-fulfilling prophecy as it was my compulsive sexual behaviours that were usually the reason for me having those troubled areas in my life in the first place. The worst part is that when I start to take steps to work at confronting my problems and relationships that little voice in the back of my head is all too quick to point out how hard it’s going to be, that I shouldn’t bother, or any number of other excuses. It takes courage to ignore that voice and not fall into the trap but rather takes some positive action instead. Usually when I do, I find the task is not as a difficult as imagined. It still means finding the will to make that first step. Courage is most common in small doses, to take that simple first act towards something new and different, rather than the heroic displays befitting a Hollywood movie. Yet it is an important part to keep us moving, growing, changing and bettering ourselves.

Affirmation May I find the courage today to continue putting on foot in front of the other.