March 16

”Keep spiritually sound and be persistent. Persistence is the key. Just never stop believing in your dreams.” Deborah Aquila

30 days to make a new habit. 90 meetings in 90 days. My home group recommends that newcomers attend 6 meetings before deciding if the program is for them. Persistence it seems is something that SAA tries to teach us. For me persistence has a lot to do with learning to trust in the experience of others. My life in addiction was all about doing things my way. I know all too well where my own direction led me in my choices. In recovery I am now more committed to surrendering to the will of others, starting with my Higher Power. It’s hard to admit that I don’t always know what’s best for me especially in situations that relate to my addiction and past behaviour. I have lived sufficient examples to have seen that turning my will over to my Higher Power works. It’s accepting those things that I cannot change and letting them go, instead of foolhardily believing I have some power. I cannot change the weather any more than I can control another person. Instead I let go and put my energies towards changing what I can; myself. Things don’t always turn out the way I expect, but they usually end up the way they were meant to be.

Affirmation I recognize recovery is about learning new skills and habits. I need to keep trying until they become part of my routine.