August 21

”It’s a good thing to have all the props pulled out from under us occasionally. It gives us a sense of what is rock under our feet, and what is sand.” Madeleine L’Engle

My vision in life is often quite narrow still, even in recovery. My desire for things to go my way can blind me to possibilities other than the one I want. This is my ongoing challenge, trying to open myself to the will of my Higher Power and relinquishing my own. I need to let go, surrender and let things happen as they will. When I try to force the issue, see my way as the only way, I often close myself to other’s opinions and actions. I try to fit things into my scenario and when they don’t I reject them or see the person as someone who is working against me rather than with me. It is hard to stay focused in the present and worry only about the facts. Trying to understand the motivation of others is an impossible task, yet I still try anyways. My primary goal is to keep working my program and concentrating on the things I can control. As hard as I try to manage my life there are times when the rug is pulled right out from under me. It’s just another reminder of how little control I actually have. I can remember this on a day to day basis as each day is really no different…I don’t require those extreme events to remind me to worry first about myself and my needs and let others take care of themselves.

Affirmation God, grant me the patience, strength and courage to worry about my own thoughts and actions today and to let all others go.