April 16

”You will never find time for anything. You must make it.” Charles Buxton

Excuses, excuses, the world is full of them. I can think of many reasons why not to do something. The thing is that the easier, softer way usually leads me to where I don’t want to go. Back into my middle and inner circle behaviours, to places where I hide and isolate and ignore my tools of recovery. I can make the decision every morning to wear my tool belt of recovery, but I still need to consciously pick up a tool when I need it, whether its journaling, prayer, meditation, reaching out for help, whatever it may be. If I do not find good things to fill my time, if I do not practice my outer circle behaviours, my addict is all too ready and willing to fill it in for me. My challenge is to make time for the things that support my recovery, with at least as much vigour as I was willing to devote to supporting my compulsive sexual behaviour. In active addiction I could always find the time to get my “fix”, I can certainly spend at least some of the energy to fuel my healing.

Affirmation I will use my time wisely. I have the power to do productive things today for my recovery.