September 17

”Our strength often increases in proportion to the obstacles imposed upon it.” Paul de Rapin

My life often feels like a series of tragic events… and I am sure it sounds that way when I tell others. I know that I often have the hidden desire of seeking sympathy. I heard a country song recently that summed things up pretty well, that it just “sounds like life to me.” I certainly can relate, in retrospect, that many of my “tragedies”, while painful and a pretty big deal when I am in the middle of them, are not really that huge when I get through them. The truth of the matter is that I tend to overreact and let situations overwhelm me that don’t warrant that much attention. It is a habit that helped feed my addiction, and still does when I let it. It is part of the same pattern that allows an addictive seed to be planted in my thoughts that eventually grows into something with enough momentum to lead me into my middle or inner circle behaviours. I no longer react instantaneously, but it still builds up to the point of no return after hours or days. That auto-pilot escape mechanism still functions all too well. I still need to be gentle with myself, forgive myself for being human and slipping on occasion. My life really is so much better. I need to keeping trusting in my Higher Power and working the program.

Affirmation I may slip and fall, but I will continue to get back up. My tragedies are not often as bad as I try to make them to be and things will improve.