February 4

”We live in a fantasy world, a world of illusion. The great task in life is to find reality.” Iris Murdoch

As sex addicts our fantasies have been our escape hatch; a way to avoid life and cope with situations we’d rather not deal with.  In working the steps of the program, we start dispelling the illusion that turning to our addiction in times of stress and fear is the healthiest option. We begin to understand that there are alternate ways such as the tools of recovery that will also help keep us sane and deal with those things that life brings before us. We’ve lived in our fantasy worlds for so long that they have become second nature. But now that we can take a sober look at our lives during those periods where our lives were dominated by fantasy, we see we were not really living but merely surviving to feed our addiction. In seeking to change our lives by giving them over to our Higher Power, we relinquish the power of illusion that comes from our addictive behaviour. It’s like discovering how a magician performs a trick, once you know how its done then it loses its ability to mystify and hold control over you. Understanding our addictive behaviour, our new found awareness also begins to release us from the compulsive spell.

Affirmation I will live in the reality of today and turn away from the illusion and empty promises of my addictive behaviour.