January 31

”A hard beginning makes a good ending.” John Heyward

My journey of recovery began in a dark, lonely, miserable place. I was crushed under the burden of the secrets I carried, completely disconnected to any sense of a Higher Power that could restore me to sanity, and utterly numb to my emotions. That was me then, at the end of my rope, with no hope for a brighter future. Somewhere in all that darkness a small spark of light managed to catch my eye. Looking back it took only a short time for that light to grow into a flame that now fuels the fire of my recovery. What a huge relief it was to discover my fellowship, a new home, a place where I belonged. How wonderful it felt to no longer feel like I was a freak, that I was a monster, or that I was alone. Even with the terrible past I carried, I quickly discovered there was hope for a new and better life. I am still not recovered today, but I can proudly declare that I am a grateful recovering sex addict. It no longer defines who I am but is a mark of my commitment to working my program and following the 12-Steps. I am living for today, and each day is a new beginning full of possibility, discovery and wonder. The world is now a bright, glorious place and I have found my place within it.

Affirmation My spirit can be battered and bruised, but given proper care it will return to its former glory and I will be a better person. Life is an adventure that is always worth living.