May 17

”We must always have old memories and young hopes.” Houssaye

The past is just that…all which has passed. It is no longer something that can be changed nor controlled. The best I can do is to learn from it to be better in the present and to let it go so I do not carry it with. This in no way implies that I will simply cease to remember what has happened. But it also means that I no longer need to dwell on it as it robs me of time in the present. I can certainly take time for reflection and seek to understand what has happened in my life, but my time and energy are often better sent on the here and now. In my hopes I try to remain as a child, full of dreams of the fantastic and impossible, to see all things in their splendour through eyes of innocence. Life has regained a sense of joy and wonder, of the excitement that anything can and will happen. I continue to break free of the bonds of my addiction a day at a time, even though I need to face reality and pain to do so. My faith in my Higher Power is there to help me stand tall when I would rather fall down and quit. I believe that there is a better life before me as long as I continue to struggle against the darkness.

Affirmation I will take from the past what can propel me forward; dwelling on what has been will only tie me down.