May 23

”While it is well enough to leave footprints on the sands of time, it is even more important to make sure they point in a commendable direction.” James Branch Cabell

My life has taken me forwards, backwards, sideways and sometimes I have been in the mud simply spinning my wheels. Looking back there many periods where I made progress, but not in any direction that I am proud of. My addiction has led me down a number of avenues that rightly make me feel guilt and shame for the way I behaved. I no longer try and make excuses, and my path forward leads on through the amends I make. Not all of my past is tarnished; the good periods need to be remembered in equal measure to balance the scale. My future lies before me and how I tackle each new day is a testament to my progress I have made in recovery.  I can look at myself in the mirror and see a person of respect, integrity, and honesty.  Each day I become more authentic as I continue working my program and becoming a living amend for the hurt and pain I have caused myself and others in the past. The great thing about leaving footprints in the sand is that eventually they will fade away. Only the most recent are important in showing the direction my life is now headed. I can keep my head held high, focusing on a new horizon as my journey continues.

Affirmation I will continue to focus on not only moving forward, but in the right directions, by the grace of my Higher Power.