July 26

”Certain defects are necessary for the existence of individuality.” Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe

I am unique. I am flawed, imperfect. I am whole yet dependent upon others. I have strengths and natural talents. I can learn, change and adapt. I am not good or evil, moral or immoral, but I can choose to act in ways perceived to be those ways. I am a human being, capable of acts of incredible love, kindness and compassion, or of things much darker. On top of all these aspects given to me at birth, I am also a sex addict. I have a disease, an illness that in its compulsivity erodes my capacity to make good choices and be wary of the consequences. Yet I am a recovering addict, and I have found hope, strength and courage in the 12 Steps and in the humble beginnings of my reconnection to my Higher Power. I am but a servant in my fellowship, there to share my story, my meager wisdom, and to be open to the messages of courage, love, patience, endurance, spirit, and resilience of my fellow members. I am an individual while at the same time a part of a larger whole, something greater than myself that promises to lead me to a life without my dependency on my drug of choice – sex. I find lessons to take home each meeting, words to reflect on and reasons to give thanks. I may be flawed but no longer am I alone as long as I choose recovery and my program.

Affirmation There is strength and hope in all the parts of me, talents to be exploited to further my recovery and weaknesses to be acknowledged and overcome to make progress.