November 2 (92)

”Fairness is not an attitude. It’s a professional skill that must be developed and exercised.” Brit Hume

I am certainly seeing that life does not always feel fair and just. As much as I would like the world to be respectful and honourable, the truth is that sometimes it is and sometimes it isn’t. What really matters is how I fulfill my role, if I choose to be honest and just regardless of the actions of others. I may not always be treated in kind but that is no excuse for me to behave poorly. It is important for me to live by my new set of values and morals, even if this not how I used to be. My change of attitude and behaviours is probably least accepted by those who are closest to me. They are the ones most betrayed and most familiar with whom I used to be. It is with them that only time and consistency in my new way of living that will allow them to being to trust that this isn’t just another phase, another attempt to make good long enough to go back to my old habits. Like many things in my recovery, being fair and just is another tool that I need to practice and strengthen. It may feel unnatural at first, but in time it will become part of my new “normal.” I just have to keep at it.

Affirmation It will be a challenge to prove to others that I am in recovery to stay, slowly and steadily must I continue along my journey.