November 3 (91)

”My basic principle is that you don’t make decisions because they are cheap, you make them because they’re right” Theodore Hesburgh

It’s still a struggle, even with a year of sobriety, to fully trust my ability to make decisions. Even though I am learning to trust others, to ask for advice and guidance, I still have moments where I act impulsively instead. I don’t always make the best decisions like this, but I am at least conscientious enough to live with the consequences. I am growing and gaining confidence to make choices on my own. Yet I still have a ways to go to gain back my faith in my own ability. As I become healthier, I still need to remind myself how fragile I am. The new coat of armor I wear from my journey in recovery is often only paper-thin and can be torn away with a careless act or word spoken without caution. I need to continue to be vigilant and proactive to avoid the pitfalls that are all around me – temptation is often only a glance away. In the end I need to continuously try to weigh my choices against the will of the God of my understanding. This is my new measuring stick to help me along the right path. I do better when I don’t try to make decisions for my own benefit but put my Higher Power and others first.

Affirmation I will strive to do the right thing, seek help and confirmation of my decisions and trust in God’s will.