December 2 (62)

”When you choose your friends, don’t be short-changed by choosing personalities over character.” W. Somerset Maugham

Letting go of past relationships as I move forward in my recovery has been challenging to say the least. Nowhere has this been more apparent than in my marriage, which unfortunately did not survive my exploits from my acting out. The more I have learned about myself, the more I have realized how much I neglected my former spouse, how much the addiction replaced the love and intimacy and broke apart a relationship that part of me truly wanted to work. Moving forward into life being single after more than a decade of being half a couple has been a transition that I face with mixed emotions. Letting go of someone I love is not as easy nor quick journey. Nor have I fully prepared myself to find someone else. Matters of the heart have never integrated well with my addiction, but I have hopes that my new awareness will carry me far as long as I am working to be in recovery today. I do have an opportunity to learn from my past and I am certainly better prepared to look for people of character to become a part of my life. I may have short-changed others in the past, but in doing so I also short-changed myself. I am worth more and deserve to find true friends to share in my life.

Affirmation I can move forward from the most broken relationships. I am capable and deserving of ones that are real, honest and loving.