December 26

”A thankful person can find contentment anywhere.” Anonymous

Some days are certainly easier than others to find reasons to be happy. The holidays, especially Christmas, have always been a time to celebrate with friends and family. As I pass through this period, apart from any family of my own, at least any who are physically close for me to spend time with, trying to keep the spirit of the season in my heart has been an extra challenge. Although I am blessed to have friends who have opened their doors and welcomed me into their homes, part of me knows that it is a poor substitute for the family I once had. Given this is supposed to be a happy and joyous time makes it hard when a large part of me only wants to grieve and be sad. Yet I am trying to let go of what I cannot change right now, hoping and praying that my children are having a good time, trying to make the best of what I have available and to appreciate the people who love and care for me. I know God is by my side, likely carrying me in His hands today as I am not able to stand on my own for my cross is too heavy to bear. I do have a late Christmas to look forward to with at least part of my family. I have had the opportunity to focus on the true meaning of Christmas for me, the birth of Christ, while trying to avoid dwelling on what used to be. I have things to be grateful for, even if this is not the way I wanted things to turn out.

Affirmation It may be hard for me today to find reasons to put a smile on my face, but I am still here and have those who can sustain me even when I cannot be with them.