December 8 (56)

”Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart.” Washington Irving

I still haven’t figured out how to deal with the people and relationships where love was taken for granted, abused and lost. I have a few places where I want to make amends, were I am willing, open and proactively seeking ways to try and rebuild, but I am knocking at doors where no one answers. It is frustrating, trying of my patience, and impossible to understand how some things can turn sour so quickly. Or maybe this is only my perception whereas the other party feels things have been poor for a long time already. Just because I want a second chance does not oblige anyone to give it to me. The challenge is to keep those doors open while finding other places where the sharing of me is welcome. I can establish other relationships with people who are willing to accept me where I am today. The love, joy and compassion I have to share still remains within me and it benefits me to give of myself, even if there are others who I would prefer as the recipients. I can still love those who are not willing or ready to accept or return what I have to offer. Unconditional love means not expecting anything to come back in return. I give simply because I can, because I believe I have something worth sharing. I can no more control how someone accepts it that I can change the wind.

Affirmation My willingness to make amends and change may have to be enough. I will trust in my Higher Power’s guidance to know which relationships to mend and when.