December 3 (61)

”Making mistakes simply means you are learning faster.” Weston H. Angor

Recovery has and continues to be a humbling experience. I have stalled quite a few times in my recovery, trying to figure out the best or perfect way to go forward. From trying to define my circles and my personal definition of abstinence, to creating my list of character defects, I have not always been the easiest client who simply follows the program. As hard as my head might be, after several repetitions from some key members that the steps aren’t a one-time do-them-and-you’re-cured remedy, I am coming to grips with not having to do them exactly right the first time. The key is to do them to the best of my ability and just to get started working my way through the process. My Higher Power doesn’t expect me to follow everything the right way all of a sudden, the importance is that I continue along the better path, and continue to keep faith in His will. All the mistakes I am making in recovery are signs that I am breaking out of my old patterns and trying new things. The discomfort I feel is perfectly normal as I am no longer relying on old habits and coping mechanisms that are familiar. Change is an uncomfortable state that I am trying to embrace as I focus on my recovery.

Affirmation I accept that I am going to make mistakes in working my program. The importance is that I keep at it.